What to do with the knowledge

This will be dragged out for me
a lingering illness
Quicker from your point of view
when you realize there is something wrong
what will you do with the knowledge
at what point will you call
chronic – terminal
Having already grieved once
when will you know the second coming
What signs will I see. Creator but disbeliever.
How will it all go down, ground zero never knows.
With my foresight I stand
ground zero
neither victim nor hero.